Category — Just Plain Crazy

Yes, I’m a Little Scared for My 1/2 Marathon Training, but one of the reasons I signed up for it was so I would HAVE to run when school started.

Lately My 1/2 Marathon Training“>my pictures have been pretty exciting, and at the same time not exactly pretty. Ha. It’s all good, though, I can laugh at and with myself.

If I couldn’t, I’d have no hope of being a comedian, and that hope always makes me laugh.

These worries shared, I think it’ll be very interesting and a wonderful journey to balance running and school and planning. Maybe I’ll ease up a little on procrastinating and dive into more of a schedule?!?!?!

Woh. Who knows? Anything is possible!

Yesterday morning, I thought I had a lot to do. I was extremely happy I didn’t have to go to jury duty (yay!), and I had planned nothing because I thought I’d have to do that. And I decided to drive from near Philly, PA to near Detroit, MI, all by myself!

It was mostly because there was the perseid meteor shower and it was going to be stormy/cloudy out in PA and it looked like a clear weather forecast in MI.

So at 2pm I thought about it, and was gone by 4pm! Craziness.

Funniest part? I got in and some clouds had come in! But we did see a couple, and I’m about to head out right now because it’s more clear tonight and I think there will be a few. Keepin the fingers crossed!

I also went for a 6 mile run with my mother- I‘m exactly 100 days out from the Philly Half-Marathon! And I am happy with my training, even if it’s completely all over the place and not exactly following just one plan That’s just how I am!

august is synonymous with autonomous. know what i’m sayin?!

so many seconds, minutes, even more hours, and days before i have a fuller-than-full-time job to get back to.

before that i’ve got a lot to do.

it’d be a lot of planning mostly, even if i didn’t have a bunch of other stuff on my plate, but i also want to finish a lot of half-completed projects and polish up my blogging and online (and time management with online stuff) worlds.

the reason i mention autonomy is to say that i’d like to be a mostly self-controlled, admirably functioning human, before i get back to it.

this means going through with my August Boot Camp, it means pushing through with good self-motivation and increased willpower (check out 3 effective ways to enhance your willpower from zenhabits), it means following through and sacrificing a little.

Sacrificing watching a TV show, sacrificing eating out, sacrificing writing a blog in order to get to sleep on time

And empowering myself. Getting a savings plan and an action plan. And being realistic and keeping sane, too!

(One of these goals is organizing this blog better. I have made progress, believe it or not, with my individual pages (there used to be like 32, now I’m sub-categorizing them) and I want to make my categories more main-stream (I like alternative words and expressions but it’s easier for people to understand if it’s clear, short, and simple)).

Here’s to a better and better tomorrow (and me getting to bed early tonight!)

This post could also be called: “Why Stealing Will Get You Back Whether Anyone Knows It Or Not”

My boyfriend was over, hanging at my place, when he asked me about something from down the hall, and I couldn’t really hear him. I thought I heard aminos, and I was right!

In his defense, he was asking permission to steal, so if I had granted it, it would have been both of our evil faults. It was this bottle of Free Aminos that enticed him:

And by the time he decided to come talk to me about it in person, it was too late.

Way too late for the Free Aminos!

I don’t know about you, but I think that says that they expired in March of 2001, which would be well over 8 years ago!

Had he stolen them, he might have gotten violently ill, or gotten the plague. Who knows.

“Do You Think You’re Safe?!”

How much can we handle?! I wonder if Michael Jackson was just too upset about the death of Farrah Fawcett?

Now that makes blogging about sitting in the sun, reading a good book, and wanting to go to Subway for dinner seem trivial in comparison.

Jokin’ bout that personal stuff. I will say this. I know that people are going to crack jokes, say kind and malicious things about him (and everything in between), and people will debate this or that. But you cannot deny that he had some timeless hits!

gotta go to sleep, but i just changed my blog theme. bear with me people. respect!

**addendum** here i am, 24 hours later, in the same kind of position i was in yesterday, tired, but really wanting to work on my blog. today was a busy, fulfilling day, and guess what?!- tomorrow- i’ll be going to Vermont! a mini-vaca. i’ve never been there. i may not update for a few days, but i will when i get back fo sho!*******

Celexa, or Citalopram, is “an antidepressant (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor or SSRI) used in the treatment of depression in adults. It works by restoring the balance of natural chemicals (neurotransmitters) in the brain, thereby improving mood and feelings of well-being. Citalopram should not be used in children or teenagers due to lack of proven effectiveness in treating depression in children. Also, there have been reports of hostility and thoughts of suicide or self-harm occurring in some children using the drug.” (source)

That last part about hostility and suicide make it especially unnerving. Take a look at this article on a study that found that one third of children with autism in the US. And it was found less effective than a placebo, and with plenty of negative harmful side effects. Are hostility and suicidal tendencies something a child with autism needs to add to their plate?

I went ahead and checked out the other side effects. This drug boasts quite a list. I think I’m going to start a new section in my blog about all these vile prescription medications. Just take a glance at these side effects, I’ve bolded some of the most offensive:

SIDE EFFECTS: “Nausea, vomiting, lack of appetite, diarrhea, drowsiness, dizziness, trouble sleeping, dry mouth, muscle/joint pain, fatigue, or yawning may occur.
If any of these effects persist or worsen, notify your doctor or pharmacist promptly.
Tell your doctor immediately if any of these serious side effects occur: changes in sexual ability/desire, increased sweating, persistent nausea/vomiting, uncontrolled movements (tremor), unusual or severe mental/mood changes, weight changes.
Tell your doctor immediately if any of these unlikely but serious side effects occur: black stools, change in frequency of menstrual periods, “coffee-ground” vomit, confusion, easy bruising/bleeding, fast heartbeats, seizures, vision problems.
Males: In the unlikely event you have a painful, prolonged erection (lasting more than 4 hours), stop using this drug and seek immediate medical attention or permanent problems could occur.
A serious allergic reaction to this drug is unlikely, but seek immediate medical attention if it occurs. Symptoms of a serious allergic reaction include: rash, itching, swelling, severe dizziness, trouble breathing. If you notice other effects not listed above, contact your doctor or pharmacist.”

Yes, I know these are “just possible side effects”, but read up. They’ve happened to someone out there, and a lot of them are adding unnecessary pain and suffering to the lives of children with autism. Boo.

Funny thing. I was actually looking up a quote that I couldn’t quite figure out. I was kind of hoping it wasn’t a quote, and that I made it up, so I was searching on the internet (most reliable source of information ever anywhere) to see if it already existed. Then I remembered it was actually a quote I was thinking of that a delightful friend of mine created. I haven’t seen her in a while, or hung out, but I’ve thought of her from time to time, and I still consider her my friend. If not for the fact that I love her, for the fact that she is an admirable human being, a great work of art of humanity- she laughs wholeheartedly and with a uniquely loud and uninhibited (but not annoying) laugh. Hearty. She’s real. Anyway, I was searching for that quote, remembered it was her, went on the dreaded Facebook to see if I could find it anywhere.
And one web page turned up at first, that I thought had some potential. I already forget what it was, unimportant at this point, I’m so overwhelmed and frazzled, that all I have is this. I’m going to make a list for myself of what the title of this blog states.

3 Things I Can live without:

– People complaining about s$%t and not making the connection to any possibly related inaction on their part (owning up to responsibility for it——-myself included in this pitfall!)

– Sugar (overt especially), but it’s so hard to give up. I just last week gave it up hardcore, and failed at school one day due to stress and the overly present lack of willpower/laziness that’s been persisting with me throughout this tough year/8 months. I felt so much better, but so quickly gave in to its evils again. I know I need to get rid of it. It makes me embarrassingly emotional- so much so that I can’t control it and I start to self-loathe and on & on.

– Excessive work / procrastination - Is that totally 2 things? Are they different? I know I could do so much better if I exercised more self-control in the realm of organization and time management-planning. I “could” live without procrastination but it’s been such a big part of my life that I can’t even remember when it wasn’t integral to who I am and how I do things. Yes, I do get these implications.

3 Things I Cannot live without:

-MUSIC they say a picture is worth a thousand words. music, to me, is worth agreeing to be silent both in speech and in written word, for a year. what a year that would be! i’d be making music of course, and fine-tuning my body language skills, but i would probably be much closer to my real dreams in life. i have valid, lucrative, and realistic ideas involving music, and i need to aggressively pursue them at this point, before i give up on true love- become a golddigga- and marry for money and end up in some terrible alternate reality that i care not to actually think about.

– oh my dog i can’t believe i’d say that. my dog. bella. but honestly, she has become so much more to me than i ever could have expected. she teaches me lessons about myself, and reminds me that i am not yet ready to have children. because she is so precious, and i can get angry at her. she is so wise beyond her years. and she is unique in her affection-giving. i do like to think it partially has something to do with her owners. she is so soft, gentle, genuine, and true; without her, i know not what i would do. (sidestep- she’s also a really good motivation to keep me in shape- walking and the like)

– sharing it usefulness. being of use. sharing, giving back. more importantly, connecting into the union that is the world, and appropriately reserving and giving myself away, and educating and continuing a life-long education with an open mind.

yeah, so, that’s like, like, why i couldn’t share on a message board. you know, like, like totally, right?! i know, right!?

I’d have to add “drama” to things I can live without, especially more and more recently. I’ve been realizing that life will bring its own “dramas”; real things- more like “traumas” and adding frivolous “drama” is the last thing anyone should do to make their life so much more challenging.

My final commentary is I don’t like the can/can’t live without attitude. It’s a stupid idea because I’m still NLP sensitive and the idea of “can” versus “doing” is one so obvious I don’t have the time to explain it here. It’s sort of like “want” versus “need”.

ohhhhh also can’t live without travel. but i have been. but also there’s travel in your mind. hehe. haha. and movement. yeah. i’m just sayin, i wanted to write a blog with a purpose, and this one at least has some guiding principles and cohesiveness, but not as much as i would have liked, because i’m most of the way through my stone i.p.a.

peas!

So there I was, hanging out at my house which may or may not be in Jenkintown, and suddenly I smell something weird. And I go outside and look and it smells worse, and I see smoke.

House on fire, at the corner of Greenwood and Walnut St. Let the gawking begin!

People started flocking outside and don’t worry, I got pictures of them too, I just have to go get my wire and upload the pics in a few hours, but first I wanted to write about it to get it up there.

Now we’re chillin’ in the afterglo and enjoying the rest of the nice day outside – now that there aren’t billowing clouds of smoke and some ash!

It was pretty awesome, and yes I admit to being one of the worst perpetrators of gawking.

Yeah, so, are you really looking for a:

“Dymanic Personal Trainer Wanted (Wynnewood, Pa)”

…or…yeah. nevermind. i bet this dymanic person will really be good at whipping clients up into shape with their advanced knowledge of the ins and outs, and ups and downs, of life. their persuasive positive demeanor can hype up any possible clientele with a case of the lack-of-work-out-rut-blues. and conversely, sometimes the client can feel better comparing themselves to that pathetic, hopeless sad-sack trainer of theirs!