Category — Just Plain Crazy

Funny thing. I was actually looking up a quote that I couldn’t quite figure out. I was kind of hoping it wasn’t a quote, and that I made it up, so I was searching on the internet (most reliable source of information ever anywhere) to see if it already existed. Then I remembered it was actually a quote I was thinking of that a delightful friend of mine created. I haven’t seen her in a while, or hung out, but I’ve thought of her from time to time, and I still consider her my friend. If not for the fact that I love her, for the fact that she is an admirable human being, a great work of art of humanity- she laughs wholeheartedly and with a uniquely loud and uninhibited (but not annoying) laugh. Hearty. She’s real. Anyway, I was searching for that quote, remembered it was her, went on the dreaded Facebook to see if I could find it anywhere.
And one web page turned up at first, that I thought had some potential. I already forget what it was, unimportant at this point, I’m so overwhelmed and frazzled, that all I have is this. I’m going to make a list for myself of what the title of this blog states.

3 Things I Can live without:

– People complaining about s$%t and not making the connection to any possibly related inaction on their part (owning up to responsibility for it——-myself included in this pitfall!)

– Sugar (overt especially), but it’s so hard to give up. I just last week gave it up hardcore, and failed at school one day due to stress and the overly present lack of willpower/laziness that’s been persisting with me throughout this tough year/8 months. I felt so much better, but so quickly gave in to its evils again. I know I need to get rid of it. It makes me embarrassingly emotional- so much so that I can’t control it and I start to self-loathe and on & on.

– Excessive work / procrastination - Is that totally 2 things? Are they different? I know I could do so much better if I exercised more self-control in the realm of organization and time management-planning. I “could” live without procrastination but it’s been such a big part of my life that I can’t even remember when it wasn’t integral to who I am and how I do things. Yes, I do get these implications.

3 Things I Cannot live without:

-MUSIC they say a picture is worth a thousand words. music, to me, is worth agreeing to be silent both in speech and in written word, for a year. what a year that would be! i’d be making music of course, and fine-tuning my body language skills, but i would probably be much closer to my real dreams in life. i have valid, lucrative, and realistic ideas involving music, and i need to aggressively pursue them at this point, before i give up on true love- become a golddigga- and marry for money and end up in some terrible alternate reality that i care not to actually think about.

– oh my dog i can’t believe i’d say that. my dog. bella. but honestly, she has become so much more to me than i ever could have expected. she teaches me lessons about myself, and reminds me that i am not yet ready to have children. because she is so precious, and i can get angry at her. she is so wise beyond her years. and she is unique in her affection-giving. i do like to think it partially has something to do with her owners. she is so soft, gentle, genuine, and true; without her, i know not what i would do. (sidestep- she’s also a really good motivation to keep me in shape- walking and the like)

– sharing it usefulness. being of use. sharing, giving back. more importantly, connecting into the union that is the world, and appropriately reserving and giving myself away, and educating and continuing a life-long education with an open mind.

yeah, so, that’s like, like, why i couldn’t share on a message board. you know, like, like totally, right?! i know, right!?

I’d have to add “drama” to things I can live without, especially more and more recently. I’ve been realizing that life will bring its own “dramas”; real things- more like “traumas” and adding frivolous “drama” is the last thing anyone should do to make their life so much more challenging.

My final commentary is I don’t like the can/can’t live without attitude. It’s a stupid idea because I’m still NLP sensitive and the idea of “can” versus “doing” is one so obvious I don’t have the time to explain it here. It’s sort of like “want” versus “need”.

ohhhhh also can’t live without travel. but i have been. but also there’s travel in your mind. hehe. haha. and movement. yeah. i’m just sayin, i wanted to write a blog with a purpose, and this one at least has some guiding principles and cohesiveness, but not as much as i would have liked, because i’m most of the way through my stone i.p.a.

peas!

So there I was, hanging out at my house which may or may not be in Jenkintown, and suddenly I smell something weird. And I go outside and look and it smells worse, and I see smoke.

House on fire, at the corner of Greenwood and Walnut St. Let the gawking begin!

People started flocking outside and don’t worry, I got pictures of them too, I just have to go get my wire and upload the pics in a few hours, but first I wanted to write about it to get it up there.

Now we’re chillin’ in the afterglo and enjoying the rest of the nice day outside – now that there aren’t billowing clouds of smoke and some ash!

It was pretty awesome, and yes I admit to being one of the worst perpetrators of gawking.

Yeah, so, are you really looking for a:

“Dymanic Personal Trainer Wanted (Wynnewood, Pa)”

…or…yeah. nevermind. i bet this dymanic person will really be good at whipping clients up into shape with their advanced knowledge of the ins and outs, and ups and downs, of life. their persuasive positive demeanor can hype up any possible clientele with a case of the lack-of-work-out-rut-blues. and conversely, sometimes the client can feel better comparing themselves to that pathetic, hopeless sad-sack trainer of theirs!

*sierra nevada – torpedo

*zen coffee from great lakes brewing company

*taki76

*sending me money. i will write you a personalized anything.

i guess i should write and share more quality stuff if i want my future to come true. online.

***addendum- while i’m in a quality-blog-writing mood: in light of my recent goals for excelhealth, i realize that in recommending a beer and a coffee and hiphop and sending me money doesn’t seem like it’d help one better oneself on the surface. but. coffee and delicious microbrews are a necessity of life in certain circumstances and i suggested these as unique or preferred alternatives to a main-stream miller lite or folgers. sending me money would actually significantly better the world. and i still recommend checking out taki76, a local funk & hiphop artist!***

also, my blogging will most likely get better this summer when i’m on teacher work sched – aka when i want, if i want! hahah!!!!

rightfully so, though, eh?! i’m on spring break. i almost had a meltdown today right before i left school. i was so done with it. i was planning on staying around the philadelpharea and takin care of some biz. well, it just so happens that my best friend found a good ticket, and long story short- i decided all within about 20 minutes. i had thought about it, but it was sort of a joke.

now i’m going. you know why? because it’s going to be “wintry mix”ing all up in this here place. and i want some 80’s and sun…even 65 and partly cloudy will be better than here. plus it’ll be awesome- different- exciting. and tons of fun to visit with me friend.

i’m sooooo excited. and now i have time to get more use out of the weekends surrounding the break. in fact, i’ve already helped my boyf clean up his house (the mess can partly be attributed to me), i’ve organized a lot of my stuff, and i’m planning on doing lots tomorrow. now we’re going to watch more movies, as we have been doing so much lately.

i’m so serious about how excited i am. finally, it’s awesome that i can be all spontaneous like that! i prefer calling it spontaneous to calling it impulsive (yes, it is a bit of both). but my BFF and i have always been like this- just ready to visit each other on a whim.

yay for living. yay for the universe combining in this manner. and more. to come. probably. soon. maybe. (now i’m definitely not going to get as much online managing does as i had wanted, but at least i’ll be relaxing and gettin some vitamin D!)

I highly recommend watching yourself some FOUND FOOTAGE FESTIVAL. Just amazing. Basically the best thing ever. I can’t even explain how good some of the footage is: random old home videos, awkward instructional vids, tryouts, horrors and horrors.

Take a gander at this promo:

And here’s one example I really liked:

It’s from “Stairway to Stardom” – a show that features tryouts that every single person should watch.

I cannot urge you more to watch them. DO IT!

I found this on popurls today, under the heading “Secretary of BRAINNSSS!”

THIS IS A MUST-SEE “SECRETARY OF BRAIINNNSSSSS” PHOTO

I found hope on the internet: HOPE

I found a parking spot on the street by the restaurant where a friend and I went to breakfast.

I found myself laughing about this cake decorating communication mix-up!

I found myself bored with this particular blog entry. Alas. I am procrastinating and not focusing. Always.

i am going to do all my work today. instead of waiting until tomorrow night, and then freaking out. today.

can it happen? even i do not know.

i might need to ask for advice on yahoo answers like this kid who got help deciding which girl to date.

so maybe you can watch

and think about this, while my magic goes down. we can hope at least.

addendum update- did not get all my work done. forgot about doing it once i started doing errands, going to dinner, having fun. but i did, in a relatively surprising turn of events, do about an hour and a half of semi-solid work due to someone i was with being heavily preoccupied.

this lack of remarkableness tempts me to take down the blog post, but no. alas. i will leave this banal post up to show the un-glamorous side of my wildly successful, flashy, and fun life, so more people out there can relate.

lovies and huggies (i hate the word lovies).

it’s hard when i think my life is going well, and then seemingly insurmountable things come up and ruin that feeling. i’m not talking about normal things. but then again, i guess terrible or really difficult stuff happens to everyone. i mean, i guess i’m happy to have overcome some of my roots from the:

but it still ain’t easy. relatives getting really sick is not something that happens often, and always sucks. and then there are those 2 other huge things. i guess both of them will eventually get better. and one of them i can already see as a “blessing in disguise” type thing, but it doesn’t make me feel better. at all.

my question today is this- how do i make more friends? i love people because they’re funny. but i don’t have time to go find them. and most of mine seem to be gone. maybe i’m not making enough effort. it’s hard when i barely have any time.

call me! bye.

Amandoo is starting to feel something different in her life.

Call me crazy. I’ve decided to give up facebook for the week. And it really is crazy. It’s only the second day I’ve been “off” of it (gave it up Sunday evening), and my life drastically changed for the better. I won’t give you the full story until I make it through, but here are some excerpts from my experience thus far:

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Monday

7:10 am – Instantly wanted to go on FB
7:11 am – This is what I would have changed my status update to:

Amanda wants to start her day every morning by watching and doing this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ktgsn_G59os (please do watch it…oh wait…here it is):

2:38 pm – the minute that I’m free, I want to FB

5:16 pm – every time I get on the computer, I think of FB in the near future

8:30 pm – tempted at every chance, it haunts me in my url bar’s glance

Tuesday

Wow has it really only been one day off Facebook? Feels like forever.

But my life is already much better. Today I had time to do my work, create a final, make an awesome dinner- and get this- share it with real live friends! 6 of us ate food and laughed and talked together!

It’s almost magical. Of course the tendencies are still there. I should really clear my private data and browsing history so the taunting suggestion doesn’t pop up every time I get on the internet tubes.

My goodness though, what a difference a day can make!

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Yeah. It is that crazy.

I feel like I was much more productive today. Wow. And not even all that tired. Pretty tired, but that was from the 3 or 4 hours of sleep I got on Sunday night.

Stay tuned!