Category — Just Plain Crazy

this is part of a non-series, as my blog is, well, non-secuator if you will. (spell-check won’t).

Part 1?

Part 3?

i don’t have much rhyme or reason to what i do, but i do like rhyming. i bought a rhyming dictionary today. and i no dubitubly intend to use it. fully. freely.

depression. a catch22 of sorts. if i’m depressed i’m no fun to hang out with, and if i don’t hang out with people i’ll get depressed.

luckily, in my world, mania strikes. and when it does, it strikes cute. like a fluffy kitten. similar to that terrible song “i get crazy” (what IS up with the radio today- do not even go there- to the radio that is)(but do go to that page and check out her song and her pic. she don’t look like i woulda thought, but boy it makes me happy that she looks like that!)

i’m makin’ sense, as always. so yeah, life. there’s my perception and experience of it, and others’. and my interpretation or ideas of what others are thinkin, feelin, and doin. and i do get crazy!

-the mainstream news sickens me
-Mr. Lif is soooo inspiring, listen to I Heard it Today
-Mos Def is also awe-inspiring, and got some great social commentary, check out “The Ecstatic” NOW

and now i’m feeling some slight pressure to donate to wikipedia (check it if you haven’t been there today, all you regular daily readers of my blog).

hey, i’m not knocking myself, nor my blog, it’s all good here. i just gotta get focused.

i did volunteer, and teaching is a form of volunteering and when i am useful to others, and not wallowing in my own why-me crapulence, i can get the good type of crazy, the good type of manic, where i get stuff done, and change the world.

hollywood stars are not who you really think you want to be, i know, right?!

Wouldn’t it be great if I were writing a post relating to that title?

Were I to do so, I’d only be recycling what many other people have said, so instead I’ll just take this time to take some time to rant and rave.

It is funny the way we might talk to someone and then go check out their facebook profile, or add them so we can do so.

I did have someone admit to FB stalking me (she was a girl who is an acquaintance), and I definitely am a culprit of this too. I know way more about people than they might think. Or do they not think that?

Whatever you put out there, people will find. Sometimes the right people, sometimes just people. Random people. Whatever. I get so flabbergasted by life, on the regular, that I go through binges of updating heavily to not, or fluctuate between trying to reserve some privacy and intimacy, and not.

I have emotions, and I share them on social networking sites. I tried to recently share that I’m now “single”, but it didn’t show up in the news feed. So now where does it go? Off into lost space and time, and only people who really want to know about me might perchance see that in my “information” it says that I’m single.

In conclusion, and not necessarily rightfully so, SN has changed our lives. And you can put on a pretty face on facebook, but everyone knows what it’s like in real life too. It definitely compounds the complexities of interactions, and who knows about pokes!, but I think it’s good overall. Because, let’s face it, it’s entertainment.

It’s when you find it boring that you know you’ve got a problem, and that you need to get back out there, into the world, and actually interact with these people.

Happy Thanksgiving, folks!

I’m so proud of myself. I ran 12 miles today. I was planning something over 10, like 11, in preparation for my 1/2 marathon in LESS THAN TWO WEEKS!

And once I go over 9 miles, it started hurting. I’d run a 10-mile race back in the day and didn’t train over that (so 10 was my tops). I’d run 9 miles recently, but by 9 miles today I had some knee pain and my ankles started to hurt.

After 10 miles, even though I had toe blisters, and my ankles and knees hurt, it was nice out, and I felt great, having caught a 3rd wind of sorts, and I kept going. I knew I’d have to go far out so I wasn’t tempted to just stop and go home, and I didn’t even look at my Garmin, just enjoyed the music, and pushed myself to finish.

At times it felt other-worldly, but it wasn’t that bad. And now I’m over that mental hurdle (10+ miles). Yay.

I’m so happy. I stretched a lot, and it may hurt tomorrow, but I am so proud. It feels good.

Let’s hope I keep running every other day, and do one more long-ish one, before the race, and I should be all set !

Yes, I’m a Little Scared for My 1/2 Marathon Training, but one of the reasons I signed up for it was so I would HAVE to run when school started.

Lately My 1/2 Marathon Training“>my pictures have been pretty exciting, and at the same time not exactly pretty. Ha. It’s all good, though, I can laugh at and with myself.

If I couldn’t, I’d have no hope of being a comedian, and that hope always makes me laugh.

These worries shared, I think it’ll be very interesting and a wonderful journey to balance running and school and planning. Maybe I’ll ease up a little on procrastinating and dive into more of a schedule?!?!?!

Woh. Who knows? Anything is possible!

Yesterday morning, I thought I had a lot to do. I was extremely happy I didn’t have to go to jury duty (yay!), and I had planned nothing because I thought I’d have to do that. And I decided to drive from near Philly, PA to near Detroit, MI, all by myself!

It was mostly because there was the perseid meteor shower and it was going to be stormy/cloudy out in PA and it looked like a clear weather forecast in MI.

So at 2pm I thought about it, and was gone by 4pm! Craziness.

Funniest part? I got in and some clouds had come in! But we did see a couple, and I’m about to head out right now because it’s more clear tonight and I think there will be a few. Keepin the fingers crossed!

I also went for a 6 mile run with my mother- I‘m exactly 100 days out from the Philly Half-Marathon! And I am happy with my training, even if it’s completely all over the place and not exactly following just one plan That’s just how I am!

august is synonymous with autonomous. know what i’m sayin?!

so many seconds, minutes, even more hours, and days before i have a fuller-than-full-time job to get back to.

before that i’ve got a lot to do.

it’d be a lot of planning mostly, even if i didn’t have a bunch of other stuff on my plate, but i also want to finish a lot of half-completed projects and polish up my blogging and online (and time management with online stuff) worlds.

the reason i mention autonomy is to say that i’d like to be a mostly self-controlled, admirably functioning human, before i get back to it.

this means going through with my August Boot Camp, it means pushing through with good self-motivation and increased willpower (check out 3 effective ways to enhance your willpower from zenhabits), it means following through and sacrificing a little.

Sacrificing watching a TV show, sacrificing eating out, sacrificing writing a blog in order to get to sleep on time

And empowering myself. Getting a savings plan and an action plan. And being realistic and keeping sane, too!

(One of these goals is organizing this blog better. I have made progress, believe it or not, with my individual pages (there used to be like 32, now I’m sub-categorizing them) and I want to make my categories more main-stream (I like alternative words and expressions but it’s easier for people to understand if it’s clear, short, and simple)).

Here’s to a better and better tomorrow (and me getting to bed early tonight!)

This post could also be called: “Why Stealing Will Get You Back Whether Anyone Knows It Or Not”

My boyfriend was over, hanging at my place, when he asked me about something from down the hall, and I couldn’t really hear him. I thought I heard aminos, and I was right!

In his defense, he was asking permission to steal, so if I had granted it, it would have been both of our evil faults. It was this bottle of Free Aminos that enticed him:

And by the time he decided to come talk to me about it in person, it was too late.

Way too late for the Free Aminos!

I don’t know about you, but I think that says that they expired in March of 2001, which would be well over 8 years ago!

Had he stolen them, he might have gotten violently ill, or gotten the plague. Who knows.

“Do You Think You’re Safe?!”

How much can we handle?! I wonder if Michael Jackson was just too upset about the death of Farrah Fawcett?

Now that makes blogging about sitting in the sun, reading a good book, and wanting to go to Subway for dinner seem trivial in comparison.

Jokin’ bout that personal stuff. I will say this. I know that people are going to crack jokes, say kind and malicious things about him (and everything in between), and people will debate this or that. But you cannot deny that he had some timeless hits!

gotta go to sleep, but i just changed my blog theme. bear with me people. respect!

**addendum** here i am, 24 hours later, in the same kind of position i was in yesterday, tired, but really wanting to work on my blog. today was a busy, fulfilling day, and guess what?!- tomorrow- i’ll be going to Vermont! a mini-vaca. i’ve never been there. i may not update for a few days, but i will when i get back fo sho!*******

Celexa, or Citalopram, is “an antidepressant (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor or SSRI) used in the treatment of depression in adults. It works by restoring the balance of natural chemicals (neurotransmitters) in the brain, thereby improving mood and feelings of well-being. Citalopram should not be used in children or teenagers due to lack of proven effectiveness in treating depression in children. Also, there have been reports of hostility and thoughts of suicide or self-harm occurring in some children using the drug.” (source)

That last part about hostility and suicide make it especially unnerving. Take a look at this article on a study that found that one third of children with autism in the US. And it was found less effective than a placebo, and with plenty of negative harmful side effects. Are hostility and suicidal tendencies something a child with autism needs to add to their plate?

I went ahead and checked out the other side effects. This drug boasts quite a list. I think I’m going to start a new section in my blog about all these vile prescription medications. Just take a glance at these side effects, I’ve bolded some of the most offensive:

SIDE EFFECTS: “Nausea, vomiting, lack of appetite, diarrhea, drowsiness, dizziness, trouble sleeping, dry mouth, muscle/joint pain, fatigue, or yawning may occur.
If any of these effects persist or worsen, notify your doctor or pharmacist promptly.
Tell your doctor immediately if any of these serious side effects occur: changes in sexual ability/desire, increased sweating, persistent nausea/vomiting, uncontrolled movements (tremor), unusual or severe mental/mood changes, weight changes.
Tell your doctor immediately if any of these unlikely but serious side effects occur: black stools, change in frequency of menstrual periods, “coffee-ground” vomit, confusion, easy bruising/bleeding, fast heartbeats, seizures, vision problems.
Males: In the unlikely event you have a painful, prolonged erection (lasting more than 4 hours), stop using this drug and seek immediate medical attention or permanent problems could occur.
A serious allergic reaction to this drug is unlikely, but seek immediate medical attention if it occurs. Symptoms of a serious allergic reaction include: rash, itching, swelling, severe dizziness, trouble breathing. If you notice other effects not listed above, contact your doctor or pharmacist.”

Yes, I know these are “just possible side effects”, but read up. They’ve happened to someone out there, and a lot of them are adding unnecessary pain and suffering to the lives of children with autism. Boo.