have they?

have things changed so much? i think they have. the way i view myself and my life has drastically changed. and i made a big career move. so that there is enough to constitute a big amount of change.

then i have certain doubts. but really i think the doubts come from routine patterns. and my patterns have changed. like, self-doubt, or loathing, or insecurity, on that level, in that way, things have changed.

i am more confident, i’m at a more secure level of existence, for a number of reasons somewhat too lengthy to sufficiently cover (and not to mention i couldn’t and wouldn’t)…but, really, i am happy.

i have changed quite a bit. do i know for sure, all the things i want and need in this world? in a word, no.

have they changed? yes. have i? certainly. have i figured it all out? no one EVER will.