Change, Accomplishment, Shift

Things are good. Really good. Yes, it would be easy for me to say that because I went to the Bahamas for almost a week! But I am headed back to school tomorrow and am still finishing up a bunch of planning and grading. What changed is the feelings I have heading back into school after a break. I actually feel relaxed, and not that nervous. Even though I did procrastinate, I did a great job working today because a) I knew I had to, b) I had some power and energy from break, and c) my life has changed. Just take a look at this pic of me:

Maybe I’ll get more up, maybe I won’t. I do care a lot about blogging, and want to create a wonderful blog, but school takes up SO much of my time. It just does. And then the other stuff in life. Like accomplishing things.

Over the vacation, my “accomplishments” were relaxing, sitting by the pool and/or beautiful ocean, and connecting and having fun! These are not things I normally see as big achievements, but they were!

My mind really has changed. Usually I’m extremely anxious, depressed, and doing anything but preparing to go back as it gets closer to going back.

This time, I think the vacation was so relaxing and wonderful, and the thought processes and reflections I had while there, have helped me recognize that in the grand scheme of things, everything is really quite great. Sure, I might not feel very well-prepared for tomorrow, but it will come and go quickly, and then I’ll be back in work mode. And I’m sure the students won’t be in the best shape as far as working goes. Games- I’m lucky to teach a foreign language for that reason.

I have a lot of further insights into what went on, and why it was so wonderful, and some of it is personal, some of it people might not be able to relate to- but that’s what a blog is for, right? Sharing your own subjective experience of life and your encounters?

I have so much to share. The overwhelming desire to have more flexibility in my work schedule is still a persistent push in my mind, but, alas, WHAT IT IS. This is the way it is, and it’ll do for now. And I’ll enjoy it.