11:11, make a wish

I wish for so many things. Am I content doing what I’m doing right now? Writing a blog post? Yes. Actually I am happy that I’m doing that. With other stuff? Well…

I did hang out with a friend this evening and it was fun. Good conversation, some thought-provoking ideas, and optimism was involved. There was also that small voice in the back of my head saying, you need to go home and do your work.

But I am SO BAD at doing my work. Meaning, I spend way more time complaining about it, thinking about it, dreading it, or procrastinating, than actually doing it. And if I really focus, I can usually get my planning/grading done quickly.

Does this need to be a constant struggle for me? I think I am in a place in my life where I do genuinely want some more peace and security. I know everything changes. I’ve been thrown for some loops in the past year. Really. But I think that this is not a viable long-term future, even if for 2 or 3 more years.

Luckily I got a book that I started reading and like. It’s about people in their 20’s, specifically women, and the challenges they face today. Unfortunately, I ordered the book from an Amazon seller and it smells smokey, and I do not like that at all.

So I will wait for it to air out a bit, and maybe actually do my work for the evening, after this ever-important blog, and then get some good rest. Because sleep brings tomorrow more quickly, and tomorrow means I am one day closer to Christmas vacation.

I wish for patience, prosperity, and positivity in the present.