That’s Just Me

Here is a combination of a life update, and more insight into who I am.

Now:
-I have remnants of a cold with some phlegm and I really don’t like it. I know I need to keep hydrating and taking my vitamins, and I want to eat healthier to boost my immune system from within.

-I have trouble dealing with all the tough stuff going on in my life. My good friend says that everyone always has a lot going on. I definitely have some real challenges, including my father having cancer, that make it hard to be balanced. Every day is different, and my emotions go up and down, and it has been rough. Very tough at times. There are small good things, and I want to make the most of my time with him, and other family and friends.

-I’m very busy. And some of that is my choice because of my small hobbies, and some of it is due to procrastination and not maximizing my efficiency with use of time. I also don’t care some days. Other days I beat myself up over it. At least I am being more accepting, and more realistic about what I can do, and when I need to stop and relax.

Always:
-I want to buy stuff. I fall victim to the culture of consumerism. But I am working on balancing the urge, with being realistic, and not spending too much (and not complete deprivation)

-I love watching most shows on HGTV. I can’t wait to have a house, and yes, it would be nice to have a partner to share it with, but someday, I want to have a house, and I like to watch home shows- it’s aesthetic and fun.

-I’m constantly reevaluating what I think about life. I am open to change, and I mean, really open. I do have some set ideas and values and goals, but you never know. Things change sooo much, and I am getting to a place where I feel more solid on my own, no matter what the weather.

-Want more holistic. Want to buy all this stuff, like bamboo clothing and sheets, and use all-natural products, and eat organic and well, but it’s expensive! So I have to balance things, and make some choices for now about cost vs. long-term health savings. I want more less stress too, and better management of the things I have to deal with. I’m taking some measures there, but I could do more. That’s also a little too personal for me to talk about.

-Want to blog more. Will do so, when I can.