3 Things I Can and 3 Things I Can’t Live Without

Funny thing. I was actually looking up a quote that I couldn’t quite figure out. I was kind of hoping it wasn’t a quote, and that I made it up, so I was searching on the internet (most reliable source of information ever anywhere) to see if it already existed. Then I remembered it was actually a quote I was thinking of that a delightful friend of mine created. I haven’t seen her in a while, or hung out, but I’ve thought of her from time to time, and I still consider her my friend. If not for the fact that I love her, for the fact that she is an admirable human being, a great work of art of humanity- she laughs wholeheartedly and with a uniquely loud and uninhibited (but not annoying) laugh. Hearty. She’s real. Anyway, I was searching for that quote, remembered it was her, went on the dreaded Facebook to see if I could find it anywhere.
And one web page turned up at first, that I thought had some potential. I already forget what it was, unimportant at this point, I’m so overwhelmed and frazzled, that all I have is this. I’m going to make a list for myself of what the title of this blog states.

3 Things I Can live without:

– People complaining about s$%t and not making the connection to any possibly related inaction on their part (owning up to responsibility for it——-myself included in this pitfall!)

– Sugar (overt especially), but it’s so hard to give up. I just last week gave it up hardcore, and failed at school one day due to stress and the overly present lack of willpower/laziness that’s been persisting with me throughout this tough year/8 months. I felt so much better, but so quickly gave in to its evils again. I know I need to get rid of it. It makes me embarrassingly emotional- so much so that I can’t control it and I start to self-loathe and on & on.

– Excessive work / procrastination - Is that totally 2 things? Are they different? I know I could do so much better if I exercised more self-control in the realm of organization and time management-planning. I “could” live without procrastination but it’s been such a big part of my life that I can’t even remember when it wasn’t integral to who I am and how I do things. Yes, I do get these implications.

3 Things I Cannot live without:

-MUSIC they say a picture is worth a thousand words. music, to me, is worth agreeing to be silent both in speech and in written word, for a year. what a year that would be! i’d be making music of course, and fine-tuning my body language skills, but i would probably be much closer to my real dreams in life. i have valid, lucrative, and realistic ideas involving music, and i need to aggressively pursue them at this point, before i give up on true love- become a golddigga- and marry for money and end up in some terrible alternate reality that i care not to actually think about.

– oh my dog i can’t believe i’d say that. my dog. bella. but honestly, she has become so much more to me than i ever could have expected. she teaches me lessons about myself, and reminds me that i am not yet ready to have children. because she is so precious, and i can get angry at her. she is so wise beyond her years. and she is unique in her affection-giving. i do like to think it partially has something to do with her owners. she is so soft, gentle, genuine, and true; without her, i know not what i would do. (sidestep- she’s also a really good motivation to keep me in shape- walking and the like)

– sharing it usefulness. being of use. sharing, giving back. more importantly, connecting into the union that is the world, and appropriately reserving and giving myself away, and educating and continuing a life-long education with an open mind.

yeah, so, that’s like, like, why i couldn’t share on a message board. you know, like, like totally, right?! i know, right!?

I’d have to add “drama” to things I can live without, especially more and more recently. I’ve been realizing that life will bring its own “dramas”; real things- more like “traumas” and adding frivolous “drama” is the last thing anyone should do to make their life so much more challenging.

My final commentary is I don’t like the can/can’t live without attitude. It’s a stupid idea because I’m still NLP sensitive and the idea of “can” versus “doing” is one so obvious I don’t have the time to explain it here. It’s sort of like “want” versus “need”.

ohhhhh also can’t live without travel. but i have been. but also there’s travel in your mind. hehe. haha. and movement. yeah. i’m just sayin, i wanted to write a blog with a purpose, and this one at least has some guiding principles and cohesiveness, but not as much as i would have liked, because i’m most of the way through my stone i.p.a.

peas!