Amandoo’s Handle of Realitumtum

i was telling myself, yeah, today is the day you can get back on facebook. but it’s actually tomorrow. i know it. because i was still using it sunday. i gave it up sunday, but i don’t remember when. so maybe late this evening, but i really want to make the point of being productive again. and spending some time reflecting on how this week has drastically changed my life.

mmm. facebook tastes good. but these burgers we had yesterday, holy moley, they tasted like taste times 1000. best burger i have ever had, hands down. i don’t know why my hands are down, when all they’re thinking of is grabbing another and throwing it in my mouth, but hands down. a friend had made them. he had frozen patties. i had no idea that it was going to be that serious. so seriously good i haven’t eaten much today. i can’t forget that taste.

life is pretty good. puppies are cute. talked with lots of real live friends yesterday. and that’s awesome. because i realize a huge thing is that hanging out with real live friends cannot be undervalued. and i will miss them (some were just in town visiting). but i love them. dearly. and facebook is good for keeping up with old friends, informal contacts, and saying funny things, and sharing pictures. anyway. it’s good. but it can’t keep you thriving. you need good old fashioned friends.

and i am happy for friends and family and laughs, and i’m getting very excited for thanksgiving. i leave in two days to go visit my bro and mom will be there, and it’s gonna be sweet. it’s so sweet that it’s almost motivating me to go do my grading and work for school.

instead, you and i can watch this “dog malfunction” vid 100 times:

woah. sidestep. i mean. sidetrack.

we’ll see. it’ll all work itself out. and it’ll be interesting to see what happens with facebook and i. will i have 32 notifications?! maybe. will it matter? nah. only a lil.

what does “heh” mean? is it a partially enthused laugh? is it a lazy laugh? is it sarcastic? is it something?

i will say it every once in a while and i’m not sure what it means.

i’m tired, my nose hurts, complaint, complaint, etc. things are actually pretty good right now. an optimistic recent turn of events counteracted a not-so-pretty situation. what am i talking about? you will probably never know.

but. i did see a funny comedy act, of the pre-recorded variety, and it was ricky gervais. he is awesome. awesome funny.

my favorite part was when he talked about the internets. he made fun of random trivia people post, he made fun of animal facts and it was good. i knew the “cows can’t walk backwards” one, but i had no idea that “stroking spiders can cause baldness” (in the spider).

he also talked about how the internet is already clogged up with all of these pages, and then there are people wanting to talk about themselves! i got a personal kick out of that, and i’ll write about it, on my half-personal half-completely random and half-what the blog.

i watched this with some lady friends, and boy did we have a good time. most of the time of it. then i got upset about something personal, and i couldn’t concentrate, or focus and finish (ie have a fun, relaxed time) and i started getting so emotional!

then i realized i was just quite hungry. there was a reason, but that got semi-resolved, and after i ate a hearty meal that involved some tofu-protein, i was happy and fine.

in conclusion, value city is going out of business, and i love the world. horsebird definitely still included.

facebook isn’t really evil. and it’s only been 4 or 5 days. and it’s amazing how tempted i am to go on. i miss it. it hurts. i don’t know what’s going on with everyone! what if someone wrote me a wall post about hanging out this weekend? what if i have a really important message in my inbox. and who is posting awesome photos i haven’t seen? what is everyone up to and how much of it are they sharing?!

yeah. it’s friday, early evening, and i haven’t decided what i’m going to do this weekend. i finished giving my exams, i had a productive meeting where i stood up for myself and my ability (again, bleh). and i want to relax. and, naturally, see what people are up to.

luckily i was about to and then got saved by remembering i still had to see “it’s always sunny in philadelphia” and boy was that good. it was unbelievable. but now what am i to do with myself?! work on things?! be productive!?!?! oh yeah……that is what just might end up happening.

I went out for all-you-can-eat sushi today with a friend, and before going, I decided I was going to make it worth my while, order a lot, and eat it really fast so I didn’t get too full to finish.

I realized I was hungry. I also didn’t have a lot of time (I had told another friend we were going to hang out and didn’t want to take too long eating). When we got there, I was starving, so I ordered 4 rolls. I might have done this once before and it was a big accomplishment.

I used to hate sushi! Then I slowly grew to like it, and love it. By sushi I mean vegetable rolls, or cooked stuff, or tempura. Nothing raw. I’m not that big of a girl, so 3 rolls is a decent accomplishment.

Today I ordered my 4 rolls and started housing them. Unfortunately I dropped one in the soy sauce and didn’t think I could eat that- but I eventually did. I even ate one of my friend’s seaweed salad roll pieces because he had ordered 6 and, though he’s done it before, this time he got full, and, in my opinion, wasn’t eating fast enough.

But hey, you really don’t want to eat too fast. I wonder how many times a day people accidentally end up throwing some of it up in the bathroom, and how often (if ever and I do think it’s happened) has someone thrown up AT the table?

Anyway, I joked around while eating, that I was getting pregnant with sushi. Minute by minute, it was month by month of a small pregnancy in my stomach.

And now, roughly 4 hours later, I am full-on 9 months pregnant. With sushi. My stomach has been way too full ever since. But at least I’m full, I didn’t throw up, and I got my money’s worth.

Good times.

Amandoo is starting to feel something different in her life.

Call me crazy. I’ve decided to give up facebook for the week. And it really is crazy. It’s only the second day I’ve been “off” of it (gave it up Sunday evening), and my life drastically changed for the better. I won’t give you the full story until I make it through, but here are some excerpts from my experience thus far:

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Monday

7:10 am - Instantly wanted to go on FB
7:11 am - This is what I would have changed my status update to:

Amanda wants to start her day every morning by watching and doing this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ktgsn_G59os (please do watch it…oh wait…here it is):

2:38 pm – the minute that I’m free, I want to FB

5:16 pm – every time I get on the computer, I think of FB in the near future

8:30 pm – tempted at every chance, it haunts me in my url bar’s glance

Tuesday

Wow has it really only been one day off Facebook? Feels like forever.

But my life is already much better. Today I had time to do my work, create a final, make an awesome dinner- and get this- share it with real live friends! 6 of us ate food and laughed and talked together!

It’s almost magical. Of course the tendencies are still there. I should really clear my private data and browsing history so the taunting suggestion doesn’t pop up every time I get on the internet tubes.

My goodness though, what a difference a day can make!

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Yeah. It is that crazy.

I feel like I was much more productive today. Wow. And not even all that tired. Pretty tired, but that was from the 3 or 4 hours of sleep I got on Sunday night.

Stay tuned!

Let’s not get superlative, saying “Yogi Tea sayings are the best”. The teas all come with a different fortune on the tag. I must admit I’ve been collecting them for a few years now. What will I do with them? I’m not quite sure, and I’m starting to really clear out some stuff from what I own and do not use. I would like to keep some of these, but I want to do something with the others. I may end up throwing them away, or leaving them in random places, or sending them in letters. Who knows.

But what I like is the message contained within each tea bag. It’s always uplifting, true, positive, simplistic, insightful, and a number of other positive things.

“Man is as vast as he acts”

“Life is a flow of love; your participation is requested”

These cute little adages are keeps me going back for more tea (not to mention it is superb quality tea). Tonight I got a message that I’ve gotten before; this time it spoke to me loudly.

“Keep up”

It wasn’t “keep up the good work”. It’s just- keep up- like they are recognizing that life is hard, and that it’s enough work to just “keep up”.

I am so behind on so many things. This very instant I should be finishing schoolwork and grade input-ting, or sleeping!!!, but I am blogging, listening to music, being emotional (for a good reason), and this is how it is. I also need to scan things, do more grading, send stuff in the mail, give up facebook, record more hiphop, maybe look into different future jobs, earn 70,000 dollars, send friends letters, make people Christmas presents, get my cd player (and car!) fixed, and I really could use a hair trim.

But I am doing a decent job. I am tempted to judge myself based on how “good” of a job I am doing, or not doing, and I realize I am still way too judgmental of myself. I was looking through old stuff and seeing how many awards I got. I was such a good achiever. An overachiever. But it worked for me at the time. Doing a lot of work, and doing it well, is a nice distraction.

Now, when I am deciding who I truly am, and what my future “should” “look like”, I find myself so often distracted. I am busy, trying to stay afloat monetarily, and I want to get a better idea of my family and work future. I am happy, and proud, to have a job, in a field I do like. As far as relationships go, well, let’s not go there.

Instead, I will attempt to simply KEEP UP. I will work hard tomorrow and be productive at school, I will continue cleaning my apartment as I have been, and here are two concrete goals that will help me be more productive this week:

1) No (or very little) going on facebook.

2) Find one of my planners, and put my to-do lists in there as well as prioritizing the to-do’s before I leave for a different state for Thanksgiving!

I will report back on my status, because, believe you me, if I am to keep up, blogging is a high priority.

there’s always something and then there’s

- to complain about -positivity

-wrong -optimism

-about mary -about mary 2

there’s never any time. well, only if you don’t make time right.

life’s too expensive. this is true for most of us common folk, but if you are frugal, thrifty, and savvy, and only make necessary expenditures, there is hope.

there aren’t enough jobs. get more creative, or get more skills.

i’m really hungry, and that’s why i was freaking out and having a negative attitude. i mean famished. and i mean spiraling negativity. it’s all connected.

the life of work can merit segments of relaxation and play.

i don’t even know! how i could manage to have a “schedule” but i know it’d be really good for me to get on one. i might try one out the first week of december.

woo. so i’m still hungry. so i’m gonna get some food. and i think aim for it to be healthy for me!

Bella Indigo Sasquatch’s 5-wk-old puppies learned how to climb over the side of their whelping box over a week ago. They are so precious, check it out:

See, I told you!

One of them can high-five pretty regularly, and they are both insane. They love to climb up me, and lick people. It’s hard to believe how cute they are, I just want to eat them for breakfast. I mean…yeah.

Every Saturday from 4-5pm I look forward to listening to Curtis Radio program with great haste! He broadcasts live from Oakland University’s radio channel- wxou.org and it is always a worthwhile time- a great mix of music and solving life’s mysteries. He has a theme with some metaphysical, spiritual, psychological questions and ponderings, and then plays a bunch of great music.

Today we’re listening to some songs from Thom Yorke’s The Eraser, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Ted Strunk, Bron Tennis, Lisa Dewey, and more! His theme today is “Musicstravaganza!” Click on the compilation cd link to check out the album “Let There Be Light” whence originated a lot of today’s music!

He told everyone to come visit my blog, and I’m very honored, but I feel a little bit like an unprepared dinner hostess, but it’s all good. There is fun stuff on this site, and I’m proud. I’ll have anyone who came based on Curtis’ suggestion know that we recently did a hip-hop collab that is set to appear on myspace before Christmas. Guaranteed enjoyment there, so stay tuned!!

Yeah people! I kind of like to plug myself too, and more importantly to plug good music, good people, good online finds, and finally- the Fresh Cut Salads. If you’re near the Philly area come see a show. If you’re near Oakland University in Michigan? Check out their websites!

You might also like to check out Reade McCardell’s radio show “Fewsh” on Monday’s from 6-8pm from gtownradio.com - the sound from Germantown. Reade is a singer and guitarist from the Fresh Cut Salads and he has the most delicious and delightful taste in music ever- and is constantly introducing me to new music I like.

Back to listening to Curtis’ show. But peace and love to you all!

my how time flies. day by day, hour by hour, sleep by sleep. i have been averaging less than 6 hours a night during the week. come the weekend?! i end up way overdoing it (10, 12, 27 hours). today i woke up and my knee hurt quite a bit. i’ve been training for a 10k turkey trot. i’m very excited to mention that it’s in houston! i’m going there over Thanksgiving and i am indeed very thankful already. so i mentioned the knee because i called out of catering today (one of my other jobs). i feel bad about it, but i’m glad i did it because i need to rest the knee. i was heavily debating choosing to do the 5k instead of the 10k, but i really want the challenge. i need to get back into shape, and i do love running. plus, my school is starting a faculty pedometer challenge. if you get in the most steps over the holidays (they want you to get at least 10,000 a day) you can win a $100 gift certificate to a spa and a $100 g.c. to your favorite restaurant. oh yeah. i also would like to win that challenge….and that might be more feasible than pretending i could place in the Thanksgiving race. in any case, i will rest my knee, run and plan accordingly, and i’m hoping to get a lot done. barack will help me get some things done. alright!