Amandoo’s Handle of Realitumtum

If you are feeling lost and alone, you can still hold on to some hope. Believe. Believe because the miracles continue.

Mr. T brought a boy out of a coma!

After reading this, I believe. I believe I can finish student teaching, get this blog into shape, and survive the harsh realities of being surrounded by jeopardy. The jeopardy will more or less always be there in one way or another. But believing….believing for no reason other than the reason of getting enjoyment out of odd wonderful stories of life that continually pop up to give you more hope……this can keep us out of the gutters.

Hopefully. We’ll see what happens with these new 5 dolla bills all circulatin y’all. Where are they coming from?!? Ron Paul is not all about that. Thin air, yo!

In case you haven’t already figured it out by now, I’m pretty cool. Like similar to a gangster-type cool, but I’ve got that whole “white-lady-gettin-in-the-schools-to-teach-the-urban-children-how-to-freestyle-rap
-while-learning-French-and- such” (so now I’ve blown the cover about being cool.). Anyway…..uh……

I wanted a Pimp the System t-shirt. I like the idea, like the sound. Not to mention, Erykah Badu had one and now I can’t stop thinking about it. I tried to find one on the internet tubes. Alas.

How can you pimp the system when you’re wearing a Hanes Spandex-trimmed at the cuffs and waistband “Pimp the System” sweatshirt? How could I even call myself a decent person?!

Eww uhhh eeeee!

Also. Being a white person, I’ve found this blog very helpful, particularly I’ve realized How Can I Go On Like This Not Knowing Whether Or Not To Let My Children Drink Wine At Home?!?!? Yeah. It’s tough to make the call. But I think I will let them dine on wine with mine eyes rise.

Losing motivation. Motivation to grade things. Don’t…..do…….it…………don’t get rick-rolled!

I’m a little bit sad, but you can’t dwell on that. Sadness is only appropriate for so long as a means of dealing with something, and I know the importance of letting sadness happen and letting it come and go, but you must keep moving through life. Accomplishments, goals, progress, and change. What motivates you to move forward?

I’m a little sad, but I could watch this video 20 times in a row to make me smile.

Little Guinean Boy Dancing Happily to Guitar

And sometimes you need something to take your mind off the sadness, and it can help you move forward.

I realize more and more how important holding on to what I love and strive for is…what I mean?………. I do want to teach and I think that will be a fulfilling, challenging, and worthwhile endeavor…………….and once I am making money doing it (albeit not that much, but hey…I’m sick of being a “poor college student” and I’m not even a college student anymore!)…….but once I’m making money from the work and it’s my main focus, I will happily and heartily put my energy into both making time for my passions, and making my interests a part of my everyday life.

Writing, music, walking, reading, more music in a variety of ways, singing, talking with friends, helping children learn foreign languages :), and maybe even some form of volunteering. I feel like teaching is volunteering in a way too. It’s such a full-time job. Right now it has the potential to take up literally all of my time besides some sleep.

But yeah, back to the video. Sometimes little things happen in life and help you get through whatever it is you’re going through…sadness, fear, anxiety, bla bla bla…anything difficult can be aided if you open your eyes……………………..etcetera.

You can HARDLY disagree with this video in any way, shape, or form.

At least not in any way that I’d really listen to.

Yes. Just yes.That video again gives me hope.

I really do be positive yo. Not about my procrastinatory academic history and not about my trouble with following through and completing projects (I get bored and move on easily)…..

but I infect the world with positivity.

Ok. Sometimes I gossip or stretch the truth, speak ill about something, or negatively bash the state of the country in which I live, but other than that….between humans…….

I don’t just try (negative sounding), I DO!

So I will stop making excuses, and make some good quality blogs while I’m finishing student teaching……to balance out the academic work vs. pleasure on the internet tubes that constantly distracts me from homeworking my homework.

To Blogging and Positivity! (and maybe even Productivity?!?!)

YES!

(Three cheers for horsebird that I haven’t heard from in a while. But miracles do happen!)

“Wazzup”

I am happy for that little guy, and happy to say that I am a good, well-rounded person who is by no means boring enough to be described in a few words like “good, well-rounded”.

The reason I blog is to remind you that I am busy, busy with student teaching so that is why I have not been blogging (lame excuse, but my future depends on it). I also was reflecting on my past and I realized how happy I am to say that I successfully studied abroad and helped French children paint when I had no idea how to do it myself. I braved painting during the adult classes and speaking French with real French adults. I was a nervous college student who had some views, but they were general and “liberal” and these people both made me speak French in conversations with them, and they made me declare and defend my position.

I hated it at the time. Now I see that it was one of the more important parts of the studying in France experience. It made me a better human in so many ways.

There were plenty other of these instances where I grew (or was forced) to become a more well-rounded, opinionated person and I look back on them so fondly I can hardly believe I haven’t been to France since!

There are so many reasons why I benefited from studying abroad and so you should do it. No matter what your major is, no matter how old or young you are. At least get out there and travel, or learn a foreign language.

It can really change your life. I am happy now living off of those memories. I am happy to think about where that experience has and will take me in the future. Yay!

Yay for the humongous irony in this photo of a wonderful billboard from some small town: “English is our Language: No Excetions. Learn it.”

I like the online commentary as well. Some people are humorous and witty “That’s funny: they left out the ‘r’ in “excretions”!” and some are, for lack of a nicer word, DUMB. “Actually it’s the “p” that they left out. Its meant to say “no exceptions.”” Duh.

Check out the choice commentaries. I really like the mix of people online and how some are smart, some are stupid, and my favorite ones poke fun of the dumb ones in a witty way such that they probably don’t even realize it (sad. but not really).

Another good comment?

“america has always been a melting pot with different languages spoken. this is nothing new. get over it and start worrying about real things like what the federal government is doing to the economy, not the immigrants who are doing the jobs that you don’t want to do.”

Yeah. I couldn’t agree more. We have our foci all mixed up. Truly. Constantly. For some it gets worse and worse as they continue to watch the same TV channels and take in the same sensationalized froofy news (blech).

Another great commentary? “Seth’s Blog” - Why bother having a resume? Some very good points made here.

Why should I have focus on a perfectly formatted paper document resume when I have so much more to show online or in projects I’ve done. I know that they want your portfolio when you get an interview, but in this day and age I am sending my resume through emails a lot and if I don’t attach a cover letter it makes it even less personal.

I know I am actually a fabulous person. With real potential to be a great teacher. So now I need to refine my portfolio and ask the right people for a couple of letters of recommendation and see what I can swing. I know I can continually word my resume better (I almost always want to re-write my blogs but fortunately for other imperfect humans out there, I don’t, so you see the rambling mumble-jumble of me and my life as it continues)…continuing on the resume-wording thought….there will always be people who have spent hundreds of hours poring it over, rewording it, using the right type of phrasing to make washing dishes sound like a cultural cuisine conquest. You know what I mean. Seth is right. In the world of today, if you really do stand out, and want to prove it, see if you can get a human to be in contact with, and make something of yourself…show the side that brings the words to life, and be a real woh-man!

Love,
A too-tired-and-unfortunately-constantly-semi-sick-little-worker-penguin, looking for handouts (and not the kind I’ve spent many hours creating for our children), because I teach your children with 60/70 hours of work a week…for no payment, for negative payment actually (I have to pay my school to student teach )

PS (Give me money and I will give more other good stuff back to the world) Yeah. Anybody?

I guess jobs could eventually fill this hole in my hall.

I get sick of hearing the sound of my own voice sometimes when I repeat stuff while teaching. Sometimes I want to give assignments like the one above, just to see what young teens are thinking these days. Here are some things I do and don’t like about life and society right now:

Like:

1) I LOVE the Japanese (the stereotypically odd Japanese and their videos and ideas). I don’t quite get this video: Japanese Hot Girl Math, because the girl at the end is supposed to be the hottest, and I don’t think she is, a few of the other girls were hotter. Also, nice logic. Again, I love the Japanese!

2) I like this kid Gabe Perez’ School ID Photos getting more and more awesome. I like the looks of him and it reminds me of some of the glory days I’ve had with school photos. I particularly like the effortless gangster look with a smile I’ve never been able to reproduce found here:

3) I love that Mrak helped me make a beat for a song we created that conjugates the French verb “aller” which means “to go”. It’s an important verb, and I really like the French I class I’m teaching because they’re cute and fun and just as I hoped- they loved it! One girl said she wanted it on her myspace (I laughed but inside was like “Yeah, maybe if you give us some royalties!”). The second to last time a student asked if they could get up and dance. I was like “Are you kidding me?!? Of course!” I’m a good teacher, I think. For the most part I am.

4) The random craziness I feel a lot that has both its ups and downs. This might remind some of the word “bipolar”, but I know that I am of sound mind. Good sound, mind you. Music I make up and dance to while I do other things in reality type quality hits. Mostly I’m excited to think that in about a month I will have a Masters and teaching certificate if all continues to go well.

5) This oddly touching comic. Life. Trying to see the good in situations and feeling special when it works out.

Don’t Like:

1) Oppression and needless violence. This is an artistic, sad photo. And it reminds me of a lot of stuff.

2) This village in Norway. Actually I do like it, but I don’t like looking at photos of things like this because I have no money to travel. /

3) Not having more time to shout the glories of Ron Paul. I am nervous about the political future of dumerica and where we could be headed. I guess in the end there probably will be a major overturning of mindframes and money games, but who knows. It would really help if Ron Paul got into office and not prostitute-loving, foot-tapping, animal-cruelty-embarking, creepy deluders get up in thur.

4) Why?! Why would this man not be a little more careful!?!? If you spend 12,000 dollars on something, I’d hope that you would at least keep a tight hold on it. Oh dear. I like the story too, though, because it’s too crazy to not be hilarious.

5) People not taking care of themselves and their lives. A slight amount of hypocrity exists as I currently say this, but I try hard to succeed and overcome past limitations. I work a lot and I have the right attitude for a fruitful future. And it makes me sad, nervous, and worried when other people aren’t doing it. It’s hard not to worry too. But you just have to not worry I guess. Otherwise you start gettin down too. Boo.

Happiness motto I just came up with: Yay for being gay!

The Angry John McCain Song

McCain snaps at an audience member

McCain angrily lies about Romney

Read another story about McCain snapping at a reporter and watch the video!

I truly am a bit worried- if we get an angry, torture-loving, money-grubbing temper tantrum guy in office, where will all the world wars go? WILD. That’s where.

If McCain gets elected? -> World Wars gone Wild.

I can’t pretend to know the true meanings of sadness, sickness, or sorrow right now. I can’t even make word sense of my life in a short blog-a-pic to update yinz. I will only be tired for tomorrow, and hopefully not sick. I am a little cold/cough right now, and it was troubling trying to tell my new French class about myself without choking and almost gagging and having teary eyes.

Last year this time I did get sick a bit, but at least I had gone home to mimigampsh to see my neices and one was new-born-ish. Now she is one year old and I do not know her voice much

I really don’t even have time to be a human, let alone all the time I need to accurately and expertly do many an hour for a lesson plan. It takes a lot of long time to make these plans. So many hours. Teachers just aren’t paid enough. Student teaching for 70 hour weeks for free is insane.

Help!

I am so tired sometimes it’s unbelievable. But not as tired as the Iraquians that get tortured by les americain soldieurs with tired sleep deprivation and water interrogation things. That does cause sorrow in my heart. It’s obviously the brainwashing and dehumanizing that comes from being trained to kill.

I have no time to think about these things. But they are a part of all of it.

One of the large reasons teachers aren’t paid enough? Look at what we are spending all of our money on. Paying people to become heartless torturers.

Society is all messed up, and I know I will make it through this crazy unpaid experience, but I don’t know if I will make it through this election if my man Ron Paul doesn’t win.

On a happy note? The dog is cute, and she might be pregnant. On a happier note? I had a fun time successful weekend with lots of friends and showers.