real cold and creepy out

oh i should have titled this ‘something gross’. what i really want to know is, what does “it’s cold as balls” mean? what balls? and why are they so cold? i’m afraid i’ve missed the ship on that one.

but i think it’s cold as bales of hay out there.

and creepy.

so once upon a time, when i was really really crazy, i stayed up all night with my crazy-in-a-different-way-but-still-pretty-crazy-cousin and we just stood on the street by my house, and we talked every once in a while. it was a very interesting night, i thought it would somehow be the answer to everything unanswered in question, staying up and not taking my medication (at that time- bad medication that is), and figuring out the meaning of life.

well, it was good, full of meaning and nothingness at the same time, i have emotions about it, but the point is this- in the early morning 3/4/5am (my new bedtimes now), three different cars drove by, and they all had incredibly weird passengers/things in them. i was just paranoid in general too so i was scared of them.

one was a man who looked a lot like Jesus, but also a little Santa- his long, flowy beard was puffy, and white, and his interior car light was on. why. why! it’s not a question. there is no answer.

i can’t explain the terror chord that struck inside me- he went down this small street at like 25/30milesperhour, and then back again more rapidly, and it was frightful. i tried to tell myself ‘maybe he delivers newspapers’, or ‘maybe he has the light on to stay awake’, but his expressionless face was the scariest part.

now wait, listen, the best part is still coming.

last night it was really snowy/icy and my car sort of stopped working. i was driving with two humans, and we see a car in the distance. as it approached, my nervousness increased. and it was HIM! creepy-like-nothing-else, still-had-the-interior-light-on-speeding-in-the-icy-snow-streets-man!!! and the WORST PART?!?!?

——–he got to a stop sign behind us as i was freaking out and trying to explain and make them see him, and he JUST OPENED HIS DOOR AND GOT OUT OF THE CAR SLOWLY (why?). i was too scared to keep watching.—————-

who is he and what was he doing? where did he come from? most importantly- WHY ARE WE CONNECTED?!?!?!?!??!

now i can’t sleep right.